heroin

I'd felt the pop of the needle sliding into my veins, like a fang into flesh. I'd been enveloped in the golden haze where nothing is wrong even when everything is falling apart. A dance with a hypodermic fiend, my hands in the claws of a vulture.

He was falling between glacial walls, he didn't know how anyone could fall so far away from everyone else in the world. So far to fall, so cold all the way, so steep and dark between those morphine-coloured walls...

Beating heroin is child's play compared to beating your childhood.

Sitting cross-legged on her bed, I watch her take out her gear. She__ been smoking so much the room stinks of it. Over the last few weeks, I__e seen her do it so often I__e resisted the urge. It__ surreal, like I__ watching me from outside my body. My willpower is fragile at the best of times, but my resolve is always weaker in the evening.I feel a dread and a revulsion for what I__ about to do, but there__ a stronger feeling, an unutterable longing. I crack.__ive us a line,_ I say.

Sitting on the train I watch the scenery speeding by, notice a cobweb in the top corner of the window, undulating with a gentle breeze I can__ feel. I lean back in my seat and take my book out of the carrier bag. Turning it over in my hand, it feels warm. It feels how I want to feel; full of knowledge, full of the future.The time I__e spent staying in bed smoking dope I__e been hibernating, recuperating and gaining strength. I__ weak socially, but being away from other drug users has made me resilient. It__ allowed my mind and body to heal and mend. As if the winter is over, I__e come out stronger now. I__ on my own. I have the choice of what to do with my life.I__ going to stay clean. I__ going to be the woman I can be.

The path to a sustained victory in Afghanistan lies in improving their economy, creating jobs for the Afghanis, strengthening their government and national services, getting the provinces to trust each other and work together, and eliminating the opium trade. Previously, the United States' policy was to not get deeply involved in internal Afghani drug issues; now we've changed the policy and are actively working to eradicate the drugs. But nobody has yet to come up with a way to shut down the poppy fields and get the Afghani people back to work. Until that happens, the Taliban will inevitable creep back in.

In general I strive for greatness and rational achievement, but I admit to you I__e a terrible fondness for women, a tendency towards drunkenness, and a weakness for the fumes of the poppy__pium and other miserable beauties.