Mari

I am sorry.I'm sorry that I feel as if you don't trust me enough to confide me. This is me being selfish even though this isn't about me, it's about you. I'm sorry that it makes me upset that in those times you thought about ending your life, I feel like I didn't cross your mind. I hate myself for thinking you didn't care enough to talk to me about those toxic thoughts that's trying to push you to end everything, because I know myself that's it is hard to share.I hate myself for thinking you didn't care enough to think about how horrible it is going to be for me once I learn what you've done.I'm sorry for feeling like this, it is selfish, I am selfish.I'm sorry for feeling like I'm not a good friend, I know that's now how you think, I'm sorry.I just love you and I'm hurt.