Paula Hawkins

If he does it with you, he'll do it to you.

As for him "feeling dead", that's probably just a consequence of him being gone from your life for so long. In some sense he no longer feels real to you.

Every time I think I'm about to seize the moment, it drifts back into the shadows, just beyond my reach.

To have my hopes raised and dashed again, it's like cold steel twisting in my gut.

Let's be honest: women are still only really valued for two things--their looks and their role as mothers. I'm not beautiful, and I can't have kids, so what does that make me? Worthless.

So who do I want to be tomorrow?