alex

Though I walk through the valley of death I will fear no evil, for I am the evilest motherfucker in the valley

Oh no. I'm not gonna let you leave yet. I'm gonna show you the value of takin' your time to get to work. I probably should have done this a long time ago.

They couldn__ have known that even this was a lie__hat we never really choose, not entirely. We are always being pushed and squeezed down one road or another. We have no choice but to step forward, and then step forward again, and then step forward again; suddenly we find ourselves on a road we haven__ chosen at all.But maybe happiness isn__ in the choosing. Maybe it__ in the fiction, in the pretending: that wherever we have ended up is where we intended to be all along.

I'm never going to be happy, but I could get close now, I think. I could be almost normal. I could have a friend.

I breathed in the memory of his lips, the softness of them, and how they felt tracing across my skin, leaving ripples of goosebumps in their wake.

Back to reality, after a brief but pleasant dream.

At first we had so much to catch up on we were talking a hundred words a second, barely even listening to the ends of one another's sentences before moving onto the next. And there was laughing. Lots of laughing. Then the laughing stopped and there was this silence. What the hell was it?It was like the world stopped turning in that instant. Like everyone around us had disappeared. Like everything at home was forgotten about. It was as if those few minutes on this world were created just for us and all we could do was look at each other. It was like he was seeing my face for the first time. He looked confused but kind of amused. Exactly how I felt. Because I was sitting on the grass with my best friend Alex, and that was my best friend Alex's face and nose and eyes and lips, but they seemed different. So I kissed him. I seized the moment and I kissed him,

I'd rather die on my own terms than live on theirs. I'd rather die loving Alex than live without him.

When feeling came back, in a storm of color and force and sensation, the most you could do was hold on to the person beside you and hope you could weather it. Alex closed her eyes and expected the worst-but it wasn't a bad thing; it was just a different thing. A messier one, more complicated one. She hesitated, and then she kissed Patrick back, willing to concede that you might have to lose control before you could find what you'd been missing.

I don__ know how we made it to the bed or if the water was ever turned off in the shower. But we were together, our bodies slippery, our wet hair soaking the sheets we were tangled in. And then we were tangled, our legs and arms. His hands were everywhere, paying reverence to the many scars on my body. His lips followed, and I grew reacquainted with the hard muscles of his stomach, the feel of him.

That was her last rational thought. She gave herself up to Cam completely, feasting on her. She couldn't get enough of her.

She was halfway through the second yard when she heard Cyprien fall and curse.No man in the world will turn down a blow job, Alex thought as she dodged through yards and around the houses, putting as much distance between them as she could. And no man, not even Cyprien, could chase a girl with his pans down.

If there's a place you should be able to put yourself first, it's in your own sexual fantasies.

Cam knew that if she succeeded, it was going to destroy her, but she could worry about that later. All she had to do at the moment was cut her own heart out without letting the wound show too much; she'd have plenty of time to bleed after Alex had gone.

I was just thinking that it would be nice if, for once in a while, life made things easier,â_ I told him, feeling annoyed. â__hy does life have to throw impossible tasks at us all the time for crying out loud?â_ At hearing my debate, Luna huffed.â__ecause lifeâ__s a bitch,â_ she growled under her breath, sulking. â__hatâ__s why.

Man Iâ__m hot,â_ I exclaimed, fanning myself. The combination of climbing out of the cave and the sun meant that I was perspiring like crazy. â__hy thank you,â_ retorted Blaine, smirking. â__â__m pleased that my presence causes that kind of reaction.

Itâ__s tough, but if you want to survive, sometimes you have to do the seemingly impossible.

Of course they were eaten,â_ he retorted, his eyes flashing in cold humour. â__rolls generally arenâ__t exactly renowned for being vegetarians.