amazing-book

This thought, this truth, it highlighted the distance between us. We lived in different timeframes. A reminder that, even right now, we didn't share the same moments. We could never truly be together.

Fallon affected my body in weird ways. But only because she__ different, I told myself.

But we were different now. I wanted only his pain, and judging from the girl he__ come home with last night, Madoc was still the same. A user.

But that was two years ago. She wasn__ sexy to me anymore. Now she was lethal.

Sometimes I wore smiles but didn__ feel them. Sometimes I felt them and didn__ wear them. I didn__ want her to know how much I craved this. I bit my bottom lip.

You see that girl, she looks so happy right? But inside she's dying. She's hurt and tired. Tired of all the drama, tired of not being good enough, tired of life. But she doesn't want to look dramatic, weak or attention seeking so she keeps it all inside. Act's like everything's perfect but she cries at night, boy does she cry at night, so that everybody thinks she is the happiest person they know, that she has no problems and her life is perfect. Little do they know.

I was fifteen then, too young to fall in-love. Or maybe it is only then, with dew of childhood still in my eyes, that I was capable of such love. I will never know, of course.

Amazing grace, amazing life.