letdown

Sing of disappointments more repeated than the batter of the sea, of lives embittered by resentments so ubiquitous the ocean__ salt seems thinly shaken, of letdowns local as the sofa where I copped my freshman__ feel, of failures as frequent as first love, first nights, last stands; do not warble of arms or adventurous deeds or shepherds playing on their private fifes, or of civil war or monarchies at swords; consider rather the slightly squinkered clerk, the soul which has become as shabby and soiled in its seat as worn-out underwear, a life lit like a lonely room and run like a laddered stocking.

The way of the consumerist culture is to spend so much energy chasing happiness that it has none left to be happy.

I__e been trying to stay real and true and proud of who I am,all those ideals of how to lookI__e been trying not to care.But I__ still holding my breath, I __ still watching every step.I__ still tip-toeing away, when I__ getting to ashamed of myself. I don__ want to be your letdown,I__ scared like hell I__ not enough.I don__ wanna beyour failure anymore._ The Glass Child, Letdown