Rebecca Podos

Time went by and there wasn__ even sadness.__ou know how another patient put it? She said this feeling inside her was . . . it was anti-feeling. Like a black hole in space, and everything__appiness, anger, hope, meaning__t would all get sucked in, tipped over the event horizon, and she couldn__ feel any of it. That__ the way it was for me. I walked around like everyone else, and had this wonderful opportunity at the museum, and came home to this brilliant guy who loved me and was nothing but sweet. Your father tried so hard. But I felt . . . empty. If I could__e filled that space up with anything, I would__e. If somebody had turned to me and said, __t__ easy, just pour some dry cement in there and you__l be a normal human girl,_ I would__e done it like that._ She snaps her fingers. __ut I couldn__. And your father couldn__ do it for me.

You get older, and you make your choices, and one by one the doors shut.